I was writing tonight and then I thought I was done.....but
I was laying here thinking of you....why.....because i wrote earlier that you
have to love the person for their imperfections.....and god how you do love
me.....you are the first person in my life that love me no matter what....for
all the craziness and the bitchiness you love me for who I am.....you love me
for my loyalty....you love me for my fierceness. And that is truly the
amazing part of this isn't it....you have never called me "stupid" or
put me down or commented on my craziness.....oh I know I get on your nerves and
you wonder why am I with this woman.....how can you not.....others have asked
you "you do know your wife is a bitch".....and always your comment is
"she is my bitch though"......
It's so good of god to give me a man like you.....and then I wonder what the hell god was thinking....I know I am lucky that I have someone that accepts me for who I am and I know you will never leave me.....kinda think if you ever did you would have the most quiet and normal life....but you don't.....you are crazy aren't you....
I know that things are changing with me.....and I want more communication with you....and that happens when you are married to someone a long time....its like you aren't suppose to need communication so much because you know each other.....but I talk and you sometimes don't listen.....but you sometimes aggravate me being the passive one....where I am the fire in this relationship....we have so much history.....a lot of good history.....some bad....you stepped in when the boys father stepped out...and you never questioned why you couldn't discipline them.....you never fought me on that....you allowed me to be their mom and to discipline them......you was there for them when they wanted a man in their lives and you loved them....they know that.....they might not admit it to you.....but they know.....and when they acted up it was good that I stepped it up and you stood in the background....
I am not easy and my boys aren't easy are they....but coming into a life with a woman and three boys are never easy....you were kind enough to allow my ex husband to stay with us when he got out of the Navy.....you stood by Patrick when he was trying to make his father see him.....you picked up the pieces when Dan turned his back on Patrick.....it's funny how Patrick said he "didn't like you in the beginning".....I don't think any of them liked you in the beginning.....but it was only because you thought you were going to come in and take the man of the house position....Gary had other ideas.....but it all got worked out......
I thank you for being there for me Lonnie.....and I do know how lucky I am to have you....you are aggravating and impossible and clueless sometimes.....but I know I can't give you up.....I need a break sometimes......and I know damn well you need a break..... BUT I LOVE YOU.....
It's so good of god to give me a man like you.....and then I wonder what the hell god was thinking....I know I am lucky that I have someone that accepts me for who I am and I know you will never leave me.....kinda think if you ever did you would have the most quiet and normal life....but you don't.....you are crazy aren't you....
I know that things are changing with me.....and I want more communication with you....and that happens when you are married to someone a long time....its like you aren't suppose to need communication so much because you know each other.....but I talk and you sometimes don't listen.....but you sometimes aggravate me being the passive one....where I am the fire in this relationship....we have so much history.....a lot of good history.....some bad....you stepped in when the boys father stepped out...and you never questioned why you couldn't discipline them.....you never fought me on that....you allowed me to be their mom and to discipline them......you was there for them when they wanted a man in their lives and you loved them....they know that.....they might not admit it to you.....but they know.....and when they acted up it was good that I stepped it up and you stood in the background....
I am not easy and my boys aren't easy are they....but coming into a life with a woman and three boys are never easy....you were kind enough to allow my ex husband to stay with us when he got out of the Navy.....you stood by Patrick when he was trying to make his father see him.....you picked up the pieces when Dan turned his back on Patrick.....it's funny how Patrick said he "didn't like you in the beginning".....I don't think any of them liked you in the beginning.....but it was only because you thought you were going to come in and take the man of the house position....Gary had other ideas.....but it all got worked out......
I thank you for being there for me Lonnie.....and I do know how lucky I am to have you....you are aggravating and impossible and clueless sometimes.....but I know I can't give you up.....I need a break sometimes......and I know damn well you need a break..... BUT I LOVE YOU.....
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