Happy Easter Krystina Lucille Tessinari

Hi Krystina,

  Its a day late only because I slept in today because I had to work Easter night, I hope you and yours had a great Easter.  From the pictures I got from my twitter feed you are looking awesome and your family had a great time with friends and Grandma Marie.  Its amazing to see how grown up you are, and how big your sister is getting.  The time does fly by doesn't it.  I had a dream yesterday and it was a strange dream, I think because my phone kept going off with Twitter messages from people that my mind was not fully at peace, wishing me a "Happy Easter" and such.  I was surprised that I did have a few pictures of you and the family on my twitter feed also.  But I dreamed you came to introduce yourself and we talked and talked and that night I passed away with a smile on my face.  And Jehovah asked me what do I regret the most and I said, "not having more time with my beloved grand daughter."  Maybe I am meant to stay alive only till the day we meet.  Well that is something, I am far from a dream interpreter, but it was interesting to me.  I woke up with tears running down my face.

  Well I wanted to drop a small note and say I hoped you had a great Easter.  You are so very very beautiful and everyone looked good in the pictures.  I find that you are still looking like your father and Zoe looks like her father.  I don't know if your sisters name is right, I think I got it from someone and trust that it is the right information and if it isn't you will have to forgive me.  I have seen pictures of your cousins also lately and my goodness those boys are growing like weeds.  And your Aunt Nikki I know is coming in May and I wish I could see her and the boys for lunch but I know that is a no no.  I am probably going to be in N. Carolina for Titans birthday around the time she is here.  But I hope they have fun.  Your Aunt looks so happy also and her fiance is a nice looking man and that little boy of his is super cute also.  But Aunt Nikki looks good as does your Grandma Marie.

  I am having a birthday party in May and I am having Payton and her mom come in from Oklahoma.  Remember Payton is my grand daughter from Grandpa Lonnie's side of the family.  I am trying to figure out what to do in the 24 hours they are both going to be here.  Want to have some fun with her and her mom.  I will take some pictures and put it up on the blog so you can see them one day.  Remember they are Payton and Jessica Gallaway.  I do have to write more and give you names and places and dates of people that know me and family that are almost everywhere in the world.  You are going to have a lot to do if you find me gone and want to know more about me.  But its like a treasure hunt, thats how I am going to think about it.  Because if I am gone from this earth it will be the biggest treasure hunt you will have in life to find out about me.  And there are well placed people that will be looking for you also.

  Anyway my lovely grand daughter you have a great day.  Be good and love with all your might as I do you.  I will write some more again soon.

Love you always and forever in this life always,

Your grandmother







  

Happy 9th Birthday Krystina Lucille Tessinari

To the most beautiful girl in the world

I am wishing you a awesome birthday dear Krystina.  You are loved by those surrounding you and for those out here in the world that get to send you birthday wishes from afar.  I am one of those from afar, but never forget that there is so many people in the world also wishing you a HAPPY BIRTHDAY because of this blog and the letters I have written you over the years.  I see you everyday, when i close my eyes.  Wow 9 years old today.  I love you no matter what.  I will always cherish you and want the best for you.  I have loved you the minute you were born and will always love you till the day I depart from earth.  You have a special place in my heart and always will and I will include your whole family.  Without you the world is just one angel short on earth.  

So this may be short and sweet but I send you an abundance of love and happiness for you and yours.  I may be far away in miles but never far away in spirit.  Be good and be the best you can be, because you were meant for many many things in life and ordinary is not one of them.  Love to you on your 9th birthday.  And may the higher powers watch over you always.

Love your grandmother
MyLinh McDonald   

To you all my readers

  To all my friends that have followed this blog to the people across the seas and the State of South Dakota and every other state, here is the response that you are all blowing up my twitter feed today and woke me up out of a deep sleep.  I express everyday you have made me strong and smile.  You are the ones that support me and get me pictures.  You are my angels out there in this world where if you didn't send me pics I would have nothing.  I know that you all need to be thanked everyday and every hour of the day.  But as you can see the little response from Kayti makes me smile and so very very happy today.  Thank you all again.  I couldn't close this today without you all knowing that.  I know all your responses are coming that going on UTube in videos could get me even a larger audience and put me on the media even more and the offers of a book with Krystina's letters are flattering but my blogging is enough and dear to me.  I don't want to be "trending" or "viral".  I just want and have always wanted one thing and that is some kind of forgiveness and communication, with Kayti first to air it all out then a great little girl or young lady named Krystina Lucille Tessinari.  And yes I did tell the truth, I would end this all for that opportunity.  I couldn't get this all out in my Tweets but I have what I want to say here and you all can forward it in whatever for me.

  I love you all to for the wonderful response I have received and still will be.  YOU ARE ALL BEAUTIFUL YOURSELF.

MyLinh       

The most beautiful 6 word response from Kayti Miner Ratigan

Kayti Ratigan      March 5, 2015 at 10:49 PM

.... leave me out of this mess

MyLinh McDonald      March 6, 2015 at 7:42 AM

Kayti Miner Ratigan you have actually blown up the twitter acct (not mine personally) I have set up for this blog and dang girl my FB has blown up.  A RESPONSE A BEAUTIFUL 6 WORD RESPONSE.  I thought Chad's response was big in all areas of social media but my beautiful Kayti you have outdid even him.  I don't care if this was toward me, it's something.  Gosh I would delete this and everything else if we can just work on this and talk.  But I know I know you still aren't in a forgiven mood.  Well another thing I have to be thankful after all, a fight that brought you out even for a moment.  Maybe I should fight even more.  But I am so trying not to, I am to old for it and having way to much fun in life now a days.  As I see with the many people that contact me about you and the pics you are also.  You did it Kayti, you found yours and I am truly so happy that you have.  There are many wishes I have for you, and for my whole family.  I was happy when you contacted Patrick to even say, "stay out of your life" also.  Even being angry or defensive it's just a pleasure to get something from you.  Everyone askes me who would get you to take down the blog completely and I say Kayti Miner Ratigan herself.  Not by simply asking but by simply calling me and having a conversation with me that was meant from the heart.  I was thinking about it with the letters Gary was getting from Krystina, but then I thought it all stopped once again and its just not consistent enough.  If it gets better for me then I would consider it.  But only one person can make me stop.  Your beautiful Kayti and so is your wonderful family.  So if you don't respond that is okay because this is forever listed in my blog as a truly beautiful morning that I am waking up to.  I am so cheering on Yvonne Stewart who is fighting for "Grandparents Rights" in the state of Florida and pray she gets that through.  I won't be doing anything legal.  Krystina is well missed here in Florida but I am not going through all that legal stuff, I would have years ago, but as long as grandparents in the future don't go through what I have then I will have a smile my face.  I made the choice though and I am waiting for you to give an ounce even to me.  I love you as much as I loved you in the past and I love you for finding your own.  CONGRATULATIONS Kayti even if this was done in meanness or frustration I am now going to tell Arielle thank you for fighting with me and bringing up your name because it gave me something from you.  Sick I know but I take my victories and contentment from the smallest things.  

Love you and yours always Kayti.  

MyLinh McDonald 

Nothing is easy but it all comes out good sometimes......

  I went to N. Carolina and picked up Patrick but I got was a lot more.  I think I got a daughter in law finally.  I have to say again that fight kinda made me "respect" her more and love her even more.  First of all she went toe to toe with me, and we survived.  I wasn't going to go to the house, I had Lonnie drop me off and head to the house and get Patrick.  But while I was sitting there I got a phone call from Arielle and she said what she had to say and I said my peace and we ended up agreeing to go to dinner and just say, "I love you".  I think she said she loved me.  I think I said I love you.  And let me tell you that it was nice.

  No family can be all cheery and all sunshine.  You have problems to go toe to toe and get it out.  I think that's healthy.  Hiding things and holding them in isn't healthy at all.  You have to get it out.  And there may be some truth in things you say, so you think about it and try to make things better.  Not going to be the last fight at all.  If I thought that I would have to be an idiot.  But I have to thank Arielle for reaching out and making me feel like we survived our first MAJOR fight, I just hope that I made her day also when I put out my own olive branch.

  I love you Arielle more today then I did yesterday.  I will hope that our love and friendship grows more and more everyday.  You are a wonderful Mom and a wonderful wife to my oldest, and may your family have a blessed life ALWAYS.

MyLinh



To my oldest son Gary Tessinari,

  The maturity you showed by staying out of the woman in your life fighting is the smartest thing you have ever done I think.  With that action confirmed the maturity you are coming into.  You made me so proud.  You look good Gary and happy and content and even though you are working around the clock I can see that your family is important to you.  I know you are growing into your own and no matter what your mistakes have been in the past, you have learned from them and you are a better person for it.  You have to go through the bad to see your mistakes and learn from them and WOW son you are making a mom proud.

  The woman in your life may have other issues sometimes but yeah you have a strong woman and I am a strong woman and it's going to be sometimes that we go at it.  For you to step it back and just allow us to fight it out was so mature.

  I love you Gary and you do me proud as a mom.  You know sometimes your actions sucked...hell a lot of times it sucked.  But my gosh Gary I can not say it enough, "YOU MAKE ME PROUD".  Love your family and seek the rest of the family to make it one.  I love you VERY VERY MUCH.  And always hold your family close.

Love your mom

   

DONE

People that hide things are not true to themselves and I personally don't hide things because "why".....I am as true as I can be. When I hide things it gave people the power to hurt me. I won't let that power be given to anyone anymore. I have family problems like everyone else in the world. I have answers I want in life. I am 46 years old and I wonder why people just don't be "honest". You know my daughter in law was brutally honest on what she thinks of my family and my children. Even though you saw me respond to it and not "nicely" I respect her for saying what she has wanted to always say. Now I know and to tell you the truth I say "FINALLY" the honest truth. But when you come at me and say here is the truth and come to find out it wasn't how do I respect you for that. I am not bothered she got her big girls pants on and fought with me. Hell at this moment I LOVE HER MORE FOR IT. She apologized to me in text and I will post it, but I don't really need a apology, i just wanted the truth. She was probably having a bad day and wanted to get things off her chest but as family I ACCEPT IT AS SHE SHOULD ACCEPT ME. I will be going to get my son because it needs to be done. He needs to finish his schooling and be a teacher. I love Arielle and Gary Tessinari with the deepest part of my heart and a fight is a fight it's how you grow from it that make you a better person and I wish EVERYONE WOULD UNDERSTAND THAT. Fighting is normal....it's how you say 'I LOVE YOU' that matters and how you are suppose to take that fight learn from it and always have each others back. Bad things come out in fights mean and vicious things...but things can be taken back as long as there is true love. So Arielle you had your truth and I gave you mine....

Now its the end for now....

My last post on my FB

Very very busy on my FB....lol....thats what happens when you have social networking.  You can post all about "god" and its a "cheery day" and all the funny video's you want.  But its all about real life and the interaction you have among people to right?  As you all saw a little drama among my family and that was a hoot and a holler.....I have been told I want to kill off 4 years old and I get jealous of children....I have been told what to write and how to write it on my FB and I have been told I am a "good" person and that my husband is sssssssccccccuuuuuummmmmmmmmm.  My son Patrick has been called names today and that I am a bad mother.  Is it funny?  Maybe not.  But the truth always comes out.  It can make us unsure of ourselves at times.  I had a father die and a mother after 46 years admit she "hated" me because of others liking me, kept asking that question and no one got on my ass about it.  I have a missing granddaughter and a grandson (not missing).  I have friends and I have enemies.  I will not bend over and stop posting because this is MY FB.  And it's to bad.  But I will also not stop on my blog neither.  You either believe it or you don't, not my problem.  If I lose friends or family not going to be the first time and won't be the last time.  But I gain the knowledge on who is my friend and who isn't, what my family thinks of me and whatever.