Love

Two people in the same room, both of them suppose to be in love with each other, but the silence between them isn't an easy silence of comfortable support of each other. It's one of those silence moments that you feel so alone in the world. The other person doesn't fit you anymore, you want them to but it just doesn't fit. You wonder how that happened, where it went in that direction. Has it been like that for many many years and you just noticed it? Are you wondering how you can make it better and not coming up with a solution? Have you tried and tried to make it better, begged and pleaded. That your confidence has just left you, and you are at a lost of any actions or words. Is this what life with someone you wanted and saw for yourself going to end, in silence, in loneliness, and insecurities. How did it happen? Why did it happen? Questions, all about questions, but no answers. Do others go through the same thing? Is this why older couples get divorced? Is there a life after being in love with a person and still in love with that person? So many questions and not enough answers. It can't be a part of life, why weren't we told? 


We see others being together for 50 to 60 years and wonder how do they do it. Do they run out of conversation? How do they do it everyday? Do they take separate vacations and sleep together like their roommates rather then two people in love? Does one person crave the attention they had when they were courting, and the other just is comfortable and doesn't need it anymore? Are we going to settle for the silence or do we get out now and start anew? Am I brave enough to take the first step or is he waiting for me to make that first step? That way he can put the blame on me that I ended it and he had tried. I have to make a decision, its the year to do that isn't it after waiting and waiting for it to be better? Wake up to the reality of it. Make that decision and make the moves to fix it. Decide and stick to it. Because if you make the decision to stay, you have no one but yourself to blame if it becomes the deafening silence you know it is and will be.