My Special Response to Karen Wolters

KWOctober 19, 2013 at 9:46 PM

Mylinh, you should know that I encourage Dan to move to the Philipines and marry Mercy the mother of his daughter Rebecca. It was the right thing to do. He has been looking for her for years now and I am so happy that he found her. His life is finally happy. He has been haunted by this all his life. It is so sad that you think everything in this life is the all and all. This life is only temporary. A flash in eternity. And just to set the record straight, Patrick wanted to stay with us. We were just trying to help him. I am glad though, that everyone in your family is doing well and is happy. The best thing is for children to be with there mother. God (or whoever you consider to be the Supreme Being) grants all our wishes and desires. But there is always a catch, since this world is full of suffering, i.e. old age, death and disease. This will be coming to all of us, and depending upon how we live our lives now, is at the end of life, where we will be. Hoping that this find you in good health and happiness. Sincerely KW BTW Thank-you for spelling my name wrong.

Guess who wrote in reply to my blog........Karen herself.....and yes I spelled your name wrong, Karen Wolters of Longwood, Florida.  Did you want me to put your address and phone number up to?  You actually made me laugh and mad at the same time.  Really, the person that tried to alienate Dan's children,  trying to put a restraining order on them.  That told Dan they were being raised by a "ghetto and uneducated woman".  You encouraged him to go to the Philippines and marry Mercy.  Laughing my ass off, how he was tortured for so many years over his daughter.  You are the most gullible and laughable woman alive.  When Dan used to tell me things about you I thought great another story out of his mouth.  But I can see its true.  I am glad he is happy to again at the expense of his three boys.  That's Dan for you.  Are you suffering, do you have death and disease at your doorstep?  I am surrounded by love and family.  Do I have problems?  Sure do....lots of them and guess what I am still surrounded by love and happiness and friends.  Of course he was searching for them for years.  Its another family he left behind and needed to make amends with.  You have a lot of amends to fix yourself.  I have the paperwork Karen, people that know you will stick up for you, people that know me will stick up for me.  But who holds the truth?  I am glad you stumbled into my blog.  God is a good god.  And the devil will come a knockin' I am sure.  So keep reading maybe you will know what a true family endures and goes thru and triumphs over.  You sure gave him a clear conscience didn't you.  Never will I give him that peace.  He did wrong by his boys, with help from you.  And your welcome.



 

Grandmother Again?

Well today I got a early morning call from my son Gary Tessinari, who announced that I was going to be a grandmother once again.  If you are a avid reader of my blog you will know that being a grandmother once again isn't my ideal fairy tale in the world.  After losing a grandchild and not allowing to talk or see that grandchild it hurts like there is no tomorrow, yes Kayti my fault, I know.  And so does everyone else that reads the blogs.  So looking forward to another breaks my heart into millions of pieces and makes me want to run under the covers and hide.

Its to hard and to much to love and lose.  It's not right.  I love being a grandmother from close up from afar.  But its not in my cards I believe.  It not one of those obtainable things that I can have.  Its a fantasy and its a great and wonderful dream.  But not a reality to me.

My son said all the pretty words and how much he regrets using me as a "scapegoat".  That was his words.  He didn't say he was "sorry" only that he had regrets.  Then he proceeded to tell me what he expects out of me.  To be there for the baby shower to send presents to love another grandchild.  Did he ask me what I expected out of him?  No it didn't come up.  I expect him to be a husband, a hard worker, and a father.  To make amends to Kayti and tell that girl that he treated her horrible and should have been a better person.  To make amends with me for telling me to choose.  To being the loving son I know he can be.  He is loving and those pretty words do come out.  But it makes you wonder what does he want out of you now.

Its not harshness I say these things.  At this point I am not angry anymore, I am resigned to the fact that my son and I have different views on things and will always disagree.  But am I happy to be a grandmother?  I felt sick all day long since he told me.  I didn't feel sick about a child coming into the world.  I felt sick knowing the pain I endure everyday knowing I have another grandchild out there and another on the way and I don't want the pain of being disappointed.  Nothing lasts forever we all know this.  How long do I get to invest my love into another grandchild only to have my son or Arielle taking that child and saying "oh sorry you are being cut off."  Or "make a choice mom and it better be the right one."

8 to 9 months of thinking and praying and hoping.  Congratulation to them and their happiness.  I mean that.  But I don't know if its worth the heartache to love another grandchild.  I don't think I would survive another love of a grandchild.  It's good that they are happy.  It's nice that they are starting a family.  And I have my little part of the world and my happiness.  Maybe we need to keep the two separate.  Because colliding the two together can mean the end of the world for me.