Life

Life is just so unpredictable and strange - the Tessinari, Birdsong, McDonald's in this life have their major moments.  Everything goes well and then in an instant everything changes.  Was this how life was meant to be.  There is a beginning and middle and then an end.  We have to wonder what is the point sometimes.  Some religions say there is no "hell" per say and I say that life on this earth is hell enough for me.  But if there is a "hell" then I am in for a long long time there.  My life isn't great its satisfying at times but its not great.  I wonder why I live at all, to bring happiness to bring fulfillment to bring joy.  But to who?

There is so much sadness in life for me at times and then like this past week after a long long time I have broke out in laughter where tears have come down my eyes and my belly aches because I am laughing so hard.  It was strange after stating I haven't laughed like that in a long time that it happened more then once this week.  Was it someone telling me it can be done or was I aching for it so badly that it happened without me thinking about it.  I have made some new friends that are in the forefront and some that are in the background.  I have lost friends this year that people have stated they were never your friends if they can disregard you like that yet I can't stop aching for the familiarity of them and what I can say to them or act with them or laugh with them or support them.  Life changes to much and I crave routine sometimes.  I am happier at work, yet when thing change there to its like the balance is lost and I have to find footing, yet I have the love at home that is just missing one piece and I miss that piece and I know that its sadness when I think about it but the mind is funny it brings it up at the oddest times.

I found that I am just eternally sad and its comes unexpectedly and I just want to be one of those people that can forget it.  I have forgotten other sad things in my life and buried those things so deep that I don't think about it but then something triggers it to the forefront and BAM I have to confront it.  I have a life that I can not say is truly bliss and happiness 24 hours a day but who in their right minds can say that.  They are the  people that can hide behind their stuff and fake it so well that you look at them and say I want that but you just don't know what happens behind closed doors do you.

I am one of those that have survived all the crap handed to her and I muddle through the quicksand only to find that I have to step gently and carefully before the next quicksand pit swallows me up.  I wasn't meant to have that perfect life, I was meant for -who knows what.  But its one second one minute one hour one day at a time for me.  And as long as I can I will hang in there and love and laugh and live because I just want to.  When the sadness envelopes me I will reach out and have who love me take me by the hand with kind words and shoulders to cry on and give me that push off the edge till the next time.  I have good and wonderful people that love me, and I love them.  But depression is so real and its so strong that I have to fight it because I want my life and whoever in this universal that wants to take it from me CAN GO TO HELL AT THIS MOMENT.

     

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KRYSTINA

Good Morning

I am here to wish you Krystina Lucille Tessinari a great day.  And this year your birthday also runs on Saint Patrick's Day.  Born under a four leaf clover you were.  I wish you all the happiness life has to offer you each and everyday.  I love you Krystina and even though there are circumstanses of us not being together in the past it was a choice I made but the time now is being withheld by others one day it will be we at least get to meet once and I will cherish that forever and ever.  YOU HAVE THE MOST GRANDEST DAY....this is the day you entered our lives and became #1 in a lot of hearts.  Love to you being sent from Grandpa Lonnie and Uncle Patrick.  I am actually in North Carolina with Titan and Isabella, who quite frankly are wearing this grandma out but are the greatest.  And we all wish u were here to celebrate your birthday.

So be happy and smile all day.  And know I love you with all my heart and then some.

Love always and Forever

Grandma MyLinh

I love you Krystina

Dearest Krystina

I love you.  Lets make it simple as that I love you and never will stop loving you.

Love your Grandmother MyLinh

Merry Christmas Krystina Lucille Tessinari

Krystina Lucille Tessinari

MERRY CHRISTMAS (a little early) you are a beautiful child and a loved child.  I have seen pictures of you lately and my you are getting tall and what a beautiful face.  And wow Zoe is getting big two.  You look good Krystina.

Of course I want you to know that every Christmas that goes by I will always wish first and foremost for you to be here, I always wish these days to have the entire family here.  I am surrounded by people I love but its never the entire family because living and work and things get in the way.  I will always ask for that in my list of gifts I would love.  One day, I always say that, "one day."  Christmas is never how I dream it to be all so often, I want what I can't have.  Do you think about having your father with you for Christmas.  You know there is a dad out there you are not in communication with. Your daddy, grandmother, grandfather, and uncles miss you here.  Your Christmases are big and happy I do see the pictures but its just a little part missing and as you get older I know a young lady knows that to, and the people surrounding you don't know your thoughts and don't want you to have those thoughts but I know that any young lady that knows there is more out here waiting on her has those thoughts.  I did when I knew there was a dad out there and relatives like my cousins and Aunts and sisters that I didn't have around me.  It's natural to want and to know about and to see.

But this is about you and not me, a young lady with dreams and hopes on her mind.  I love you and never will stop loving you.  I have such great love for this whole family but I am so far away from a lot of the family to show that love and not enough time to do that.  One day I won't be here and I had to ask my BFF Denise if I would be remembered.  She told me, "yes my children will remember you" and I liked that but I also wished my grandchildren would remember me and I want a chance to make memories with ANY grandchild to remember me.  So this is to you Krystina a letter to hopefully remember that a grandmother is out here loving you everyday and every year and know that just seeing pictures of you is my greatest joy in life.  Any picture of my grandchild makes me smile and breaks my heart all at the same time.

Merry Christmas my dear girl

Grandma MyLinh

T-Mobile

T-Mobile with no contract is trying to get a month of payment from me. I left them three days into my billing cycle when I left them to go with Verizon taking 4 numbers with me. The claim because I took the numbers with me they can bill me another month. How does that happen? I should be charged for three days not a month and they were sending me bills of 150.00 and now its jumped to 189.00. What do they think I am stupid. Plus their un-loyalty had me leaving anyway. What they should have done is called concerned of losing a customer of 10 years or more instead of being bullies. So T-Mobile or collection agency please continue calling my phone because like I stated I do record my calls also.......

Consumers Can Receive Up To $1,500 For Each Unwanted Cell Call

•  Apr 3, 2014
•  Billy Howard
•  Debt Harassment

Are you hounded by debt collection calls?  The next time you receive a call from a debt collector, rather than ignoring it, simply pick up the phone and tell them to stop calling.

By telling companies such as banks and debt collectors that they do not have permission to call, you may be eligible to receive up to $1,500 per call if they continue to harass you.

By telling companies such as banks and debt collectors that they do not have permission to call, you may be eligible to receive up to $1,500 per call if they continue to harass you.

A recent lawsuit filed against State Farm shows that victims of unwanted debt collection calls may be eligible to receive sizable payments, although they owed money to the company that is making the pestering calls. In the case of Osorio v. State Farm, a federal court ruled that State Farm broke the law when it continued to make debt collection calls after the plaintiff specifically asked the company to stop calling. The lawsuit involved a South Florida woman who provided State Farm with her housemate’s number as an emergency contact. When the woman fell behind on her payments, the company harassed her and her housemate with hundreds of unwanted debt collection calls.

Under the Telephone Consumer Protection Act, a federal law designed to protect consumers from unwanted calls and text messages, it is illegal for any company, including a debt collection agency, to use automated systems, artificial callers, and prerecorded messages to call or text you unless you have given the company express permission to do so. You can revoke your authorization to receive calls at any time, and the company must, by law, stop calling.

If you have received unwanted calls to your cell phone, you may be eligible to collect up to $1,500 per unwanted call. Complete our free case evaluation form to find out how the consumer protection attorneys at Morgan & Morgan can help enforce your legal rights.

- See more at: https://www.forthepeople.com/blog/consumers-can-receive-up-to-1500-for-each-unwanted-cell-call/#sthash.HATs3gv2.dpuf

Obituary for Leonard N. Carter

Carter, Leonard

posted August 20th, 2014

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Leonard "June" Nathaniel Carter Jr. Mr. Leonard "June" Nathaniel Carter Jr., 61, went home early Tuesday morning, August 19, 2014, around 1 a.m. at Greystone Health Care Center after a long battle with MS. Mr. Carter was born on December 16, 1952, in Bristol, Virginia. The son of Betty Sensabaugh Carter and the late Leonard N. Carter Sr. Along with his father, June, was preceded in death by his younger brother, Ricky Carter; maternal grandparents, Bruce and Henrietta Sensabaugh; and paternal grandparents, Emory and Nannie Carter. June worked for many years as an engineer in Grand Rapids, MI. , Los Angeles, California, and his last employer was in Lauderdale By The Sea, Fla. with REP Corporation. June was a member of Lee Street Baptist Church Survivors include one son, Mr. Leonard "Lenny" and Crystal; his mother, Betty Sensabaugh Carter; sister, Bonnie Carter Norris; brother, Michael Douglas Carter and Kathy; two grandsons, Nathaniel IV and Trenton; three nieces, Nikki Brown, Ashley Shu, and Dominique Carter; one nephew, Jason Norris; and a host of family and friends. A special THANKS to staff at Greystone Health Care and Bristol Regional Medical Center for their care of Leonard. At the request of the Mr. Leonard N. Carter Jr., his remains will be cremated and there will not be any services. Condolences and Expressions of sympathy can be sent to raclarkfuneralservice@yahoo.com Professional services and care of Mr. Leonard "June" Nathaniel Carter, Jr. and family are entrusted to R.A. Clark Funeral Service Inc. (423) 764-8584

Leonard N. Carter

Eulogy for Leonard N. Carter Jr.                                                 October 2, 2016

  Our son called me on 10/1/2016 at 8:46pm to tell me his wife helped him find you to only learn you had passed two years ago.  First of all, I didn’t know he was looking for you, and second I felt bad for him because obviously he wanted to find you possibly to have his own questions answered.  I have been searching for his half-brother for a while to no avail.  But now we have leads because the names in your own obituary gave us those leads.  Now the common names were going to be hard to find without knowing their faces, but the one I could find possibly would be your niece.  And the spelling was wrong and the surname wasn’t there but I found her and then all the puzzles of the missing people came about. 

  Leonard I was young and I loved you as much as a young woman could love someone but you were in love with another.  I didn’t know the way around love and strong love and I so tried to have you love me.  But I know that I took my heart and handed it to you and it never stuck and your heart wasn’t meant for me.  I am good, I know the last time we spoke you asked me that and I want you to know I am good.  I love Lonnie and he is so good to me.  We had closure that last conversation, you learned you had MS and answered my questions about why you never wanted to meet Gary and allow him to meet you.  I remember that one day you did drive up to the Denny’s but didn’t get out of the car and said hello to Gary gave him an excuse why you wouldn’t get out of the car and drove away.  I remember you were a mystery to me and when I became pregnant you ignored me and then Gary was born and he looked like you.  I remember you didn’t want to help me with Gary’s medicine telling me he wasn’t yours and I remember being so hurt and then mad that now I was just going to prove you wrong.  Got the DNA and got the child support and you paid it faithfully. 

  I don’t know Leonard if you shared Gary’s existence to any family members but our son wants to know someone just to find out more about your side of the family.  I can’t blame him it’s a natural progress to know from whom are you a part of, how did I get this trait, or why am I like this.  He looks like your son, Leonard Carter "Lenny" and his Uncle Michael.  I hope your family wants to know him and doesn’t pretend he doesn’t exist, like your mom did to me that one and only phone call I had with her.  They looked like god fearing family and I don’t pretend to know about god and what he would want but I think they may reach out and at least acknowledge him.  Please cheer him on from where you are at.  Please watch out for him on this journey he is going on.  I don’t know if you thought about him in any way over the years, this beautiful child that was brought into the world.  But I now know Gary thought of you, he acted tough and said, oh well, but I guess curiosity has taken root if he went on his own search.  He has a wonderful step father in Lonnie and Dan wasn’t too bad but he abandoned them for a woman, Gary called to make sure Lonnie knew this search wasn’t a reflection on him.  Gary doesn’t call home much he has his own family to tend to but I miss him a lot.  He works hard and has accomplished so much. 

  I thought of you a lot over the years but I knew we would not meet again after that last conversation.  You had a fight on your hands with MS and I had a life to lead and my own children to raise.  I had the closure so this little good bye letter isn’t mean or wanting to get my hurt out.  I loved you and will always love you and I hope that you are at peace.  Thank you for giving me Gary Matthew Tessinari.   

Love MyLinh